My life as we know it!

i'm still kicking!

2006-08-10T19:03:37Z

dude i haven't wrote on here forever! thats cause i forget about this cause i'm always on myspace! its taking over my life and i'm letting it! :)
i'm not on it as much now cause of school and i like to hang out with coen cause he is getting so much fun! he craws everywhere and follows you around all over the house. he is talking up a storm and just getting into everything but its ok, cause i wouldn't have it any other way! i just love this kid! he is great!
other then coen i have just been doing school and work. i'm a busy little bee but i'm making it!

its me!

2006-07-03T16:26:42Z

hi i'm still alive!!!
havent been on here for like a month and its because of myspace taking over my life! hehe

anhatch @ 2006-06-08T23:26:00

2006-06-09T03:46:28Z

i haven't really wrote much on here. myspace takes up a lot of my time these days! i hate myspace but i can't stop checking it like every 10 mins. its sad really. they ppl i talk to on myspace are the ppl i talk to on the phone and see on a regular basis. oh well i can't help my crazy addiction to myspace.
other then that i have been having a rough time with everything. i'm really trying to have a up side to thing but every time i start to think things are good they get tossed right back down.

let me tell ya something that i dont understand about myself. i dont know why i dont like this girl named rikki. i guess she and nate are just friends but i get so fucking pissed when she calls and they talk on the phone for so long. i dont get pissed when nate talks to kat or that other girl leslie. he dated kat for awhile and the other girl he well... yea so i just dont understand it. i have been having a bad couple of days and its like every time i turn around or see nate his phone is ringing and its her. i just fee like i get rid of sarah and now i have to deal with another girl. i am not about to get fucked like i did with the whole sarah thing. i guess i just get pissed cause i know about them in high school and when i was first dating nate we meet some girl at shakers and he left me to go and talk to his girl about where rikki has been plus i just know some other stuff. i dont even talk to my best friend as long or as often as they talk. when she first started to call it was alot. i even left the house pissed off and when i came home like almost 2 hours later they were still on the phone. i can't even have a conversation with nate that long with out him playin a fucking game or being on the computer. i just know how nate is with other girls and i try to watch my own back cause i've been hurt to many times. its really sad that i think that way but i do.
so i guess if rikki does read this i guess i dont really hate you its just that i dont like you guys talking as much as you do and i dont like nate going off to the other room to talk to you it makes it look bad. i dont know if she knows about sarah and why i freak out so much but that is why i get so upset.
well i'm off to get a shower then bed. i feel bad cause ryan and meredith are here but i am just way to upset and depressed to do anything. dont think i am upset and depressed just over the whole nate and rikki talking. its a lot of things. stress about school and coen, my aunt has breast cancer now, my great gram is almost dead and i can't get nate to get off the fucking computer and video games and go to bed earlier then fucking 4 or 5 am! so its not just her its a lot of thing....

anhatch @ 2006-05-20T17:33:00

2006-05-20T21:43:12Z

here lately i have just be in the worst moods ever! its just that i am so depressed like the worse its ever been and the weird thing is, is that nate is doing great! he is happy and doing just fine. its like we swapped places. i just dont want to get out of bed i dont even really want to do anything with nate and coen. its bad i know, i should want to hang out with my kid but..... i'm just so stressed. i'm worried about school and how nate is going to do with coen and now nate is hanging out with an old friend that just came out of the blue and i'm just not ready to have him hanging out and talking to girls just yet. it really scares me! its just a ton of shit that is adding up and the weird thing is, is that nothing is really going on to make me feel this way. its just like all caught up to me and now i can't deal with it when things are going good. nate actually wants to talk and help me out and i feel like an ass cause i dont want his help right now and i dont really want to talk. i think once our insurance kicks in i am going to talk to a doctor cause i can't go to school feeling the way i do right now. i'm a mess! i cried just about the whole way home last night from jimmys and i cried the other day just cause nate was on the phone with this girl. it wasn't like he was even hiding it, its just the fact that i felt left out i think. i am always trying to get him to hang out with me and coen and he doesn't want to but when someone calls him he would rather talk to them. thats just how i feel whether its true or not i dont know.....

anyways.. on a good note coen can now say "hi" i swear that is what it sounds like! he can say HI daddy! well that is what we think he is saying so... yea he is saying hi daddy! :) he is getting so big. they really do grow up fast.

boring days....

2006-05-09T23:59:03Z

blah..... that about summs it up for me!!!

oh yea coen loves cell phones so i gave him an old one and he plays with it all the time now! he is crazy!

oh yea i went to my friends grad thing and party it was nice. then i went to nates family thing and it was actually REALLY fun! the kids all got drunk and his cousin alice is a fucking riot! she was so wasted! next time we are all together nates mom and all the other adults are going to get us "kids" our on place and they will take the babies so we can all party! how fucking cool is that. i sweat his family gets cooler every time we see them! hehe

its finally done!

2006-05-02T05:13:24Z

well today i decided i was going to talk to sarah wilson about everything. i think that i desever the truth and a aploge about everthing and thats what i got. she told me that she was sorry for everything and that we were both getting played not just me. that nate probably had two stories going on and that is prob true! anyways... she is going to have a baby i guess and is going to live with her boyfriend and not around here! thank god! anyways... i got to talk to her and tell her what i thought and it felt good. i think that i can rest easy now knowing some of the things we talked about and knowing that it is all in the past. i did it in a nice way and neither one of us got pissed and faught. it was an ok converstaion. i know some ppl can't comfront someone without them flippin out and breaking and throwing shit! anyways... she wished me luck with nate and coen and i did the same for her. weird how i even told her that if she needed to ask me anything about babies i would try to help her. her i am being nice to the girl that fucked me life up for a year! i dont get myself sometime but then again i guess it makes me some what of a better person!

go me!

things i hate!

2006-04-28T06:15:18Z

i'm just sitting here thinking of things i hate. and i hate a lot of things!!! one thing i hate the most is when lets say you tell someone that you will give them something but they say no and then later go and do it on there own but what really gets me is when lets say you say "i'll give you a gold diamond necklace that is worth a million dollars" and then they say no but later that day they go and get a necklace themself and it looks like cheap silver with no diamond! why someone would do this is beyond me! is it the fact that they would just like to please themslef or do they just not like me and want my gifts? its a question i have been asking myself for awhile now. i just can't figure it out. another thing that pisses me off is liars!!! i can't stand for someone to look right at me and lie to my face. it makes me want to hurt someone in a bad way. other things that piss me off are just stupid shit like not putting a trash bag back in the trash can, dirty dishes, dirty house, i hate a lot of ppl but hopefully that list will go down with time.
i just woke up and was thinking man.... i hate a lot of shit and it bothers me but i can't help it. things just get really under my skin excepsualy when i offer to do something and they say no then go and do it themselves. I FUCKING HATE THAT!!!!

other then all that i had a pretty good day. karma is working her magic and i love it!

anhatch @ 2006-04-25T21:05:00

2006-04-26T01:10:30Z

well things are going well. coen is getting big and is sitting up all on his own talks a lot now. just says baby stuff but still its talking! he is saying dadada as i type right now. i think he is getting some teeth and he isn't always a happy little dude. other then that... nothing really is going on.
happy early birthday to josh love!!!!

anhatch @ 2006-04-18T19:47:00

2006-04-18T23:47:24Z

here is another pic of coen in the back yard. i have a ton more.

http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/hatch021/album?.dir=/6393&urlhint=actn,ren%3as,93%3af,0

anhatch @ 2006-04-18T19:43:00

2006-04-18T23:43:18Z

Well Coen and I went outside today and took a ton of pictures. he is so cute and loves to be outside. he got his own chair for outside today they look the one's we have outside on the front pourch. we had a good easter coen got a lot of stuff an outfit this little hat he is wearing and the sandles. oh yea and we finally got back this catscan results and he is fine. i knew nothing was wrong with my little guy. he is to damn smart to have something wrong with him. anyways.... i am going to clean now and hang out with my little guy.

anhatch @ 2006-04-14T15:16:00

2006-04-14T19:16:55Z

he can also be cute with his hott mom! lol i just can get enough of this kid!

anhatch @ 2006-04-14T15:12:00

2006-04-14T19:12:01Z

this is the best picture of coen ever! i just took this today when we got home from the hospital. this picture tells all!!! heheh

anhatch @ 2006-04-14T14:30:00

2006-04-14T18:35:42Z

well we went and got the catscan done and coen didn't like it. he wouldn't sit still and if he kept movin they were going to give him a shot to make him sleep. so i had to go in with him and try to keep his head still. it was really hard cause he was cryin then i started to cry it was awful. we dont know anything yet and i wont for like a week. so i hope everything we well. god if anything were to happen to this child i would die! he is doing so good so i am not really sure as to why they felt he needed it beside his head looks a little weird. his motor skills are coming a long really good. so.... i got my fingers crossed!

tomorrow will be hell!

2006-04-13T22:21:44Z

tomorrow coen has to have a catscan of his head cause it is shaped weird and he isn't growin as fast as they say he should. so nate and i are going to take him tomorrow to the hospital to get it done. i hate it! i am so scared that my face broke out with pimples!

on a good note i got all my school stuff done and i am going to start in june and get into the nursing program. i also placed out off all the classes to get into the nursing program so i am really proud of myself!

suck ass

2006-04-05T00:17:37Z

Am i really losing all ties with all my friends? its like everyone is scared to come over. is it coen? cause he is really cool around people. is it nate? i am just wondering why everyone seems to be so distance from me. it just makes me a little sad. oh well.... got to deal with what i got.

an ok day!

2006-03-30T03:27:57Z

today nate and i went and rode out bikes when i got home from work. it was nice to get out and do something outside. so my mom watched coen while we went and rode out bikes from our house to the cemetery and back. man i need to get into shape! hehe

anyways its a better day then yesterday was... thats for damn sure!

sometimes i swear!

2006-03-28T20:38:49Z

man if it isn't one thing it is another! last night this guy who i dont talk to often was texting me so i was texting him back. now this guy and i are just friends i dont like him like that but he does like me. anyways... around 3am last night i got this text and a call from some girls asking why i was talking to this person. i told her that we were just friends and i am with nate and we have a baby together. well she then tells me that her and this guy have a 3 week old little girl together! i just about died cause he never told me that and he told me he didn't have a girlfriend. well nate and i were pissed cause it was late and we wanted to hang out and we couldn't cause this girl kept texting me. i finally told her to leave me alone i had to go to bed. she then told me she knew who i was and that i should watch out.
now can you fucking believe that i havent done anything and now some crazy bitch is going to come after me for no reason! yea story of my life. some bitch fucks me over and i dont get to confront her or tell her what i think about her but i get yelled at by 2 girls now for shit that isn't really my problem. bullocks if you ask me.
yea so i called the guy today and told me he doesn't know if the baby is his and this girl is married and all this shit. yea i swear i just need to go to jerry springer and get it over with!
having a rockin time!!

my little coey t

2006-03-27T18:42:36Z

so i am sitting at home just watchin coen. he is so amazing!!! he can do so much and it is so cool to watch him figure the world out one day at a time. he can now sat mama and dada he holds his own bottle roll over and do all that fun stuff. he knows who nate and i are and he doesn't like to be away from us long. when we walk in the room he smiles and laughs at us. he is just so great!!! you dont know the love of a parent till you become one. its the most craziest thing ever just how much you love your child! i just can't get enough of him!!

some good news for once!

2006-03-20T04:56:26Z

coen said Mama last night!!! he keeps saying it over and over again! nate says that is doesn't count cause coen doesn't know what he is saying and it doesn't sound like mama but it fucking is. my mom and i have been saying it a lot to him to get him to say it and i'll be damn if the kid didn't say it!! i have such a smart baby! :)

st. pattys day from hell

2006-03-18T02:42:04Z

well can you guess what i am doing tonight on st. Patrick's day? if you guess sitting in bed at 9:30 cryin in my green shirt then you got it right. can you fucking believe i am at home doing nothing! i wanted to go out with friends have fun cause we havent done that in awhile but instead i come home to nate being pissed off at me cause i didnt come home early and he couldn't get his stuff done but he could have taken coen with him but he didn't want to bring him a long all over town. so i am getting punished cause nate is pissed and now i am home doing nothing. i can't get ahold of anyone to hang out with and it sucks.... i hate when he gets like this! i feel like i have to walk on egg shells around him sometimes to not piss him off. oh well.. can't fix everything i guess.

oh other news, this guy i guess killed himself 3 houses down from us. that is crazy! also i a kid i went to school with had to get life flighted to columbus cause when his mom went to wake him up he wasn't responding and i am not really sure what that is all about.

anyways great fucking st.Patrick's day!!

more bad news...

2006-03-14T00:38:54Z

the other day i got the most sickening news that you dont ever want to hear. that someone in your family was in a bad car wreck and is on the way to the hospital and is not responding. that is just the worse thing that has ever happened to me. it was my mom calling me to tell me that my little brother brock was in a roll over and he isn't responding and is on the way to the hospital. i just about fell to the floor. i called for my manager and told her i had to leave that brock was in a bad accident and she was cool about it. i would have left anyways cause well... its my little bro. so i get to the hospital and not just anyone can walk back into the ER but i knew the code to the ER doors where the ambulance goes in at so i just helped myself. i go to the room he is in and he is awake. as soon as he see's me he starts to cry which makes him hurt even more. i just sit there and hold his hand and tell him that he is going to be ok. i leave him for a quick sec and find my mom. she tells me that brock was in a roll over and was in the back. he wasn't wearing his seat belt and he flipped to the back of the SUV and the spear tire hit him in his back and threw him out the back window. the sec i guess he went out the back the car stopped rolling. he said that his head and arms were out the window and he was on his back. he is so lucky cause if he was wearing his seat belt he could have been dead cause the roof of the car was smashed into the car and if the car would have rolled over just one more time he would have been crushed. i dont think he knows just how lucky he really is.
i go back into the room he is in and tell him how lucky he is and all that good stuff. he went and got all his test done and nothing is wrong with him no broken bones and just one little scratch on his finger. yea so... man that was just the end of my perfect week. (yea right)

this is a long one and all i do is bitch!

2006-03-10T03:47:55Z

i havent wrote much on here in a while but i haven't really had that mush to say. it seems like everything i write on here is me just bitching about this and that so i just didn't feel like you guys reading about me bitchin. a lot of shit kind of hit the fan i lost a friend and someones mom came into MY work and called me a lot of things like "fucking bitch, skank ass slut" you know same ol' shit. i almost got in a car crash today and just about hit the mom that called me the fucking bitch. well she didn't like that and called me some more names but i dont really care anymore. i have someone coming into work lookin for me to start a fight so i hear from the girls at work. yea things have been going good but, like i said i didn't want to bitch.

Coen is growing so fast. he is sitting up and playing with his toys. he rolls over all the time now and holds his own bottle. he is just so damn cute i can't stand it. i always put pics up of coen at work so that this other bitch can see him and stay away from my family! yea... so i just can't help but bitch i guess i just have to get it all out. so sorry if you dont want to read about all the shity shit that has been going on i would click on someone else's journal! :)

so my little bro might be in jail on monday cause him and his friend were outside his friends house when the cops came and said they needed to search them cause circle K was just robed. well brock had beer on him and he is only 19 his friend who is 17 had 2oz of pot on him and the cops were like "wow thats a lot of pot" then brock tells them that some of it is his!!! why my bro did this i dont know. but now he is going to court on monday and could be in jail for a MINIMUM of 6 months. yea that sucks and i got him a cell phone so now i have to pull a extra 60 bucks out of my fucking ass to cover it. yea..... it keeps going. fucking crazy ass bitches coming into my work and starting shit with me and coming into work while i am not there looking for me. sarah wilson came into work today and was saying how she talks to this guy at radio shack who helps her with her problems and how she talks to him all the time. yea well she is fucking stupid cause nate changed his number and i dont think she has it and if she does and they do talk i get the detailed bill and will find out so i dont think nate is talking to her which is really good. things with him and i are about the same. we are making it work and thats as good as we can do right now with all the shit that is going on! josh love doesn't seem to be talking to us and that sucks cause one i love josh and nate misses his also and wants to work on the movie. its not happening cause josh isn't returning our calls and wont message me back. nate is actually down at his house right now. i can just imagin what is going on. it is either really good or really bad and if its really bad i dont want to be at the house tonight cause nate wont take it well if josh doesn't want to do the movie anymore. another thing i worry about is nate thinking that i am coming in between them making the movie. thats a long story but if nate thinks that then i am as good as gone if thats the case. "his movie comes first" says nate and well.... yea.

things i am doing to try to get my mind off all the shit is i am taking a dance class like i use to in high school. i also want to lose a lot of weight get back in shape get some flexibility back. ;) so thats whats going on with me!!! sorry its long and sorry you just had to read about me bitchin but i guess i really just needed to get all that out and i didnt even tell all cause i know someone might get a little pissed if i said everything so i try to keep my mouth as shut as i can but i am not like some i know and keep everything in! i like to get it all out and talk about it.

going to take a dance class....

2006-02-20T23:57:37Z

yea so i am going to start a dance class tomorrow! i can't wait its going to be just like old times! :) i need to lose a lot of weight and i think that this is the way to do it for me. i can't work out i think it is just to boring but if i bust a move i think i will stick with it. so wish me luck cause i bet i am going to be hurting like crazy tomorrow night! good thing i have off wednesday! :)

fucked up!

2006-02-17T22:51:10Z

things couldn't be anymore fucked up right now. remember when i said things were going really well...... well... now they have all gone down hill like i had said they would. its a long story but lets just say that things aren't that great for a couple of people including me! i am going to try to fix it the best i can but i dont really know where to begin.

i think nate and i are going to go out and try to have a good time since his dad is watching coen tonight cause we both work in the morning but i'm a little pissed at nate right now so i dont know if that is going to happen. the kid wont stop fucking playing his damn video games and he wont feed coen like i told him to cause it is easier to feed coen a bottle cause nate needs to get back at his games... fucking grow up! the game has a fucking pause button! oh fuck.....

anyways... i am going to try to cheer myself up so... yea

what was the surprise.....

2006-02-15T19:43:53Z

well yesterday was valentines day and it went really well. i got flowers and a card the day before valentines day and nate said he had a surprise for me. well he wouldn't give me any hints or anything about it so i really didnt know what to think but... its nate and he has only done a few sweet things so i just thought that maybe he got me something for my phone at radio shack cause that sounds like nate! hehe well nate and i were making breakfast yesterday when the door bell rang and i asked him to answer the door and he told me no that i needed to answer it. well me being busy making breakfast and trying to get coen's food ready i said "dude come on, can't you get the door." then he said its your surprise you better answer the door! so i hope right to it and answer the door to find ryans step dad barry at the door holding a big heart shape cookie! i came inside and read the card and it was from nate and coen which i thought was cute. it was thoughtful and sweet but he is eating all most all my damn cookie and that sounds like nate! hehe! he actually got me a lot this year. he got me my flowers, a card, my big cookie and of course my car charger for my phone from radio shack!! while he was out getting pop for our pizza he get me this fake rose with a giraffe on it that said wild thing! i thought that was sweet cause giraffe's are my favorite animal. so i have to give him some credit he did good this year. all i got him was 3 xbox games... so i kind of feel bad. i might go and get him this software that he wants.

so i hope you all had a good valentines day!!